George is back to work after almost a week at home. Ouch! Not used to this. Parenting alone again is rough! Regin and I have a rough couple of days at the beginning of the week as we readjust. I seriously need a day off from mothering. It's so hard sometimes and when people tell you that you don't get breaks, it's so true. But I never realized how hard that would be psychologically. It's obviously seriously compounded by my hypoglycemia which gives me the heavy grumpies from time to time (read: almost every day).
The hypoglycemia is really frustrating me. I thought I was doing better. My big weight loss tells me I'm doing better (improper diet causes hypoglycemics to store more fat). But I'm still having daily symptoms. They're not as extreme as they were, but they're still there and they make me feel pretty sorry for my little boy. I did feel better after I gave up breastfeeding, but I must confess... I fell off the wagon. I stopped for three days and then I nursed Regin again (just to see if I still could). We took another two-day break after that and now we're back to nursing almost every day. I had no idea how hard it would be to stop!
I'm also feeling better since I gave up grains last week. Baby steps I guess.
Thursday I am trying to pull myself out of those dumps and enjoy something from my culture. It's one thing you're supposed to do to keep the homesickness at bay. So I'm making stuff for Halloween. I haven't seen any Halloween decor for sale here, and I don't expect to (heck, I haven't even seen a place to buy party supplies!), so I'm making everything from scratch with my limited craft stash -- I still haven't been to a craft store here. It's fun to make the decorations, but I wish I had all my stuff here to go all-out.
I'm learning to bake almond bread and I'm SUPER excited about that. Even though I'm not a sweet tooth, and I don't really miss the foods I've had to give up, the struggle makes me bitter. When I go out to eat and struggle to find something on the menu and someone at the table next to us is pouring syrup over their ice cream I get really angry at my illness. The idea that I can eat baked goods of any kind is such a relief! Maybe no more anger now - and no slip ups with grains.
By the way, I have a cereal substitute: chopped raw pecans (sometimes other nuts seeds too) with milk. Yum.
Another bright spot in my week: Regin learned how to climb on his rocker by himself. Sometimes he ended up sitting side-saddle, sometimes he fell off, sometimes he sat in it backwards, but he can get on it by himself and he is pretty excited about it!
2 comments:
ya it's a good thing they are so cute right?! i was telling kiko i want to put an ad in the park hill paper for a middle schooler or high schooler that would like to come and play with palmer a day or 2 a week after school so i can get some things done, kiko thought that was a creepy idea. ya i don't know when i'm going to stop breast feeding either.
Yes!
I kind of agree with Kiko, but only because you don't know the kid. If it's a kid you know I think it would be perfect. I was hoping to find some teen to come over this past summer and get a free vacation in Penang in exchange for occupying my son now and then. Didn't find any takers. :(
I'm so desperate, I'm actually thinking of day care, even though I am not a big fan. Plus I like the idea of someone hanging out with him here.
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